Good News

The results came back on the triple screen and the numbers look good. 1 in 2,800 chance of Downs or Trisomy 18,13. So, one millestone down. On to the next one.

Since I've been gone

Well..... Thought I would actually stop in and give a brief update.

I haven't been blogging for several months. Not sure my thoughts were all that well formed. It has been one heck of a year, for sure. When I last wrote it was to say we lost baby #2, we went to the hospital the following day to have a D and E performed and spent the next 24 hrs. tearfully tucked in each others arms in bed. I gradually worked my way back into reality and found comfort in returning to my job and daily routine. And again, the support of our friends was a huge blessing.

Several weeks later I received a call from Dr. Wonderful to let me know the results were in from the tissue sample they tested and it gave a definite reason for this loss. An extra chromosome #15, basically a fluke happening. He was encouraged that it was this and not something that would likely occur again. We did find out that this pregnancy, indeed , was a little boy. Sigh.....
I have to honestly say - I never felt good about this pregnancy. I'm not sure if it was the bleeding early on or the apprehension I am sure to feel. But, I could never resolve myself to being happy about it.

So here is the kicker...... We are now 11 1/2 weeks pregnant. Yep, I couldn't believe it myself.
Doc had said and I qoute " we usually tell our patients to wait two months before ttc again, but if you guys were to get pregnant before then, we won't be mad at ya." So, I took it to heart and starting calculating right away. Odd thing is, I can't say I even had a period. Just a spot of blood on day. So I went with it as a period in my calculations. I have been told because of the d and c my level of blood was minimal -thus no average period.
So far we have had about 5 u/s and every thing is looking normal. The HR is in the 170s and this little one is a mover. Makenzie NEVER moved around like this. This past Monday we met with the specialist for the NT test and the triple screen. The results will take five days and I am trying to stay positive. But am scared to death there will be bad news. I keep holding on to the fact that the nuchal fold was well within normal range and that it is ultimately in God's hands.

I will try and update soon.

#2 and counting

At 2pm today dh and I went to the Dr.- a day early -after bleeding again over the weekend.

The u/s showed that the baby no longer has a heartbeat. I am scheduled for a D and C tomorrow morning.

Night Life

9 weeks and 1 day today. I have been doing fairly well, usually evening hunger pains (1 hr. after dinner) accompanied by nausea accompanied by sore boobs. I have evening nausea vs. morning sickness, did with Makenzie also. The difference so far is that starting yesterday the nausea and hunger and sore boobs have disappeared. Which didn't happen till 2nd trimester before.

I used the phrase "I don't feel pregnant" when I left a message on the OB nurse line.

Here is the thing, last night I laid in bed worried that there may be something going wrong and I needed to hear the HB. So, when I finally did fall asleep, dreams of dead babies danced through my head all evening. Lovely, A?I talked myself down this morning and just relaxed and rested all day until my hubby and a phone call from a friend encouraged me to "just call the OB and see if you can get some reassurance or possibly have a Doppler monitor performed."
Well, the nurse was helpful and told me it would be too early for the Doppler to detect a hb, but that if I was having great anxiety and losing sleep to call back in and have an u/s performed. She also said that "don't feel pregnant" is a typical concern for many mothers. "Just realize that hormones are constantly changing right now and every pregnancy is different."
So, I have decided to try and hang in there till the 31st for our next visit.

I am definitely gonna be ordering a Doppler. Any advise a selecting one and where to go?

Pretty in Pink

I have not been able to get online till today.

We have had company all wkend and it has been go, go ,go!

So....
WE HAVE A PEANUT WITH A HEART BEAT OF 132 BPMs.
Dr. W is amazing and was just as thrilled as we were to see the little flicker. He jokingly said, "and if you believe the wives tale, it's a boy" which I quickly replied, "Dr. W we have a hell of a lot a pink he's gonna be wearing"!

Holding our Breath

Well, we did not see a heartbeat, but the Doc says everything looks great. He says, being only 6 wks we were a little early to possibly see a HB, but that the measurements and the yolk sac look very promising. We were able to see the little peanut -well more like a small piece of rice on the u/s, but it was very tiny.

So guess who has to come in for u/s #2 on this Thursday. Doc feels we definitely should see a heartbeat by then. That is, if indeed there is gonna be one. I guess I am still trying to keep myself neutral on the whole situation for now.

It has been getting harder to keep it from friends, they are all getting suspicious as to why I am not hanging out and drinking cocktails on the wkends right now. We have concocted a lie about a kidney infection. Good grief, I hate lying! I just don't want them to have to go through the roller coaster of emotions right now. We will tell most of them if there is a hb Thursday.

I do have to say that Odouls has a pretty tasty amber beer out now. I don't recall that being around last year.

Sorry for the delay in posting the results, I didn't really think anyone was reading.I will try and do better. Have a great 4th. When you watch the fireworks , think of my Makenzie also, she would have loved em from this view.

UPDATE

I haven't had a chance to update for the last couple days. So I wanted to fill you in.

Had a bit a scare last Friday when I started spotting bright red-that later in the evening turned into something similar to starting my period. For a brief moment only. By Saturday morning, nothing except dried blood when I wiped. Been pretty much clear since Friday.

I did go into the Doc on Monday and get another blood level run. HCG had increased to 3350. Which is good. They are doing an u/s tomorrow and hoping to see a heartbeat. There is some concern about the u/s because of the spotting. The doc is cautious to say we are fine until then. So we are praying.

We were also "busted" while at the OB. A friend, who is 9 mos. prego, ran into my husband in the wait station. I later popped around the corner and made her promise not to say anything to anyone. She told us that she had spotted throughout the entire pregnancy and in the beginning had a spell of bright red.

So maybe things will be fine, for now.
Till tomorrow.