Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Happy Mother's Day!

Guess what I got to bring home for Mother's Day? Yep, I ended up having my c-section 1 week early and got to bring our Beautiful baby boy home on Mother's Day, of all days. He was born at 36 1/2 weeks weighing in at 8lbs. 3oz.

I will fill you all in on the details of the delivery day soon. Let's just say, it had some eerie familiarities.

Friday, April 4, 2008


Boy, I am really bad about posting. Has it really been that long?

We had our first rounds of weekly non-stress tests yesterday and I have to say it bared to many resemblances to before. At first they weren't seeing the spike in heart rates when the "little tummy toad" moved, but that quickly resolved. What was mostly worrisome was that the NST was showing I was having contractions. They checked my cervix and it was fine -no thinning.
The problem and anxiety for me is, I can't tell I am having these contractions (or BH), so when they tell me to monitor myself and keep time of them, I feel helpless. How can I monitor something I can't even tell is happening.

They say there is a good 98% survival at 32 weeks, but that goes with a 2% not good rate, which is worse odds than Makenzie had. Sigh....

Hang in there buddy!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Happy New Year!!!

Well ,the holidays have passed and my anxieties over this pregnancy have returned. With the help of some hiccups. I got a call from the nurse the day after Christmas letting me know that the results from my AFP (spinal bifida) test came back high. Not knowing much about this test, and actually not educated about sinal bifida, I made the simple mistake of asking "what does this result mean". Oh boy, she had plenty of SCARY scenarios.

Needless to say, I broke down after the call ended and found myself in the throws of that all familiar "hopeless feeling". I called the nurse back and had her fit me in to Dr. W-onderful's day. I needed to hear the facts from him! (we were on the road, heading home from relatives out-of-town) As soon as he came into the consult room he put our minds at ease. He informed us that A) numerous women get higher results that turn out to be nothing B) my results were not nearly as bad as the nurse made it out to be C) I had already had a Level II ultrasound (along with about 9 others) that showed a very healthy spine and neck- no indication on SB. After he spent 45 minutes going over the facts with us- we decided to do another level II to ease any worries. That u/s has taken place and it all looks fine. Shewwww.......
By the way, doc did say he would speak with the nurse.

On another note, I failed the glucose tests. Which I did with my previous pregnancy also. I am able to control it with my diet, so hopefully that will continue.

Oh, and I don't believe I have said that we are carrying a BOY! We found out at 14 wks during an u/s. I have to say, "we were a little shocked at first, I think we truly thought this one would be a little girl" after about 24 hrs it sunk in and we began to envision him. We are now 20 1/2 weeks>>>but who is counting? LOL.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Good News

The results came back on the triple screen and the numbers look good. 1 in 2,800 chance of Downs or Trisomy 18,13. So, one millestone down. On to the next one.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Since I've been gone

Well..... Thought I would actually stop in and give a brief update.

I haven't been blogging for several months. Not sure my thoughts were all that well formed. It has been one heck of a year, for sure. When I last wrote it was to say we lost baby #2, we went to the hospital the following day to have a D and E performed and spent the next 24 hrs. tearfully tucked in each others arms in bed. I gradually worked my way back into reality and found comfort in returning to my job and daily routine. And again, the support of our friends was a huge blessing.

Several weeks later I received a call from Dr. Wonderful to let me know the results were in from the tissue sample they tested and it gave a definite reason for this loss. An extra chromosome #15, basically a fluke happening. He was encouraged that it was this and not something that would likely occur again. We did find out that this pregnancy, indeed , was a little boy. Sigh.....
I have to honestly say - I never felt good about this pregnancy. I'm not sure if it was the bleeding early on or the apprehension I am sure to feel. But, I could never resolve myself to being happy about it.

So here is the kicker...... We are now 11 1/2 weeks pregnant. Yep, I couldn't believe it myself.
Doc had said and I qoute " we usually tell our patients to wait two months before ttc again, but if you guys were to get pregnant before then, we won't be mad at ya." So, I took it to heart and starting calculating right away. Odd thing is, I can't say I even had a period. Just a spot of blood on day. So I went with it as a period in my calculations. I have been told because of the d and c my level of blood was minimal -thus no average period.
So far we have had about 5 u/s and every thing is looking normal. The HR is in the 170s and this little one is a mover. Makenzie NEVER moved around like this. This past Monday we met with the specialist for the NT test and the triple screen. The results will take five days and I am trying to stay positive. But am scared to death there will be bad news. I keep holding on to the fact that the nuchal fold was well within normal range and that it is ultimately in God's hands.

I will try and update soon.

Monday, July 30, 2007

#2 and counting

At 2pm today dh and I went to the Dr.- a day early -after bleeding again over the weekend.

The u/s showed that the baby no longer has a heartbeat. I am scheduled for a D and C tomorrow morning.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Night Life

9 weeks and 1 day today. I have been doing fairly well, usually evening hunger pains (1 hr. after dinner) accompanied by nausea accompanied by sore boobs. I have evening nausea vs. morning sickness, did with Makenzie also. The difference so far is that starting yesterday the nausea and hunger and sore boobs have disappeared. Which didn't happen till 2nd trimester before.

I used the phrase "I don't feel pregnant" when I left a message on the OB nurse line.

Here is the thing, last night I laid in bed worried that there may be something going wrong and I needed to hear the HB. So, when I finally did fall asleep, dreams of dead babies danced through my head all evening. Lovely, A?I talked myself down this morning and just relaxed and rested all day until my hubby and a phone call from a friend encouraged me to "just call the OB and see if you can get some reassurance or possibly have a Doppler monitor performed."
Well, the nurse was helpful and told me it would be too early for the Doppler to detect a hb, but that if I was having great anxiety and losing sleep to call back in and have an u/s performed. She also said that "don't feel pregnant" is a typical concern for many mothers. "Just realize that hormones are constantly changing right now and every pregnancy is different."
So, I have decided to try and hang in there till the 31st for our next visit.

I am definitely gonna be ordering a Doppler. Any advise a selecting one and where to go?