Today was another day of disappointment and sadness.
I eagerly awoke this morning to make my way into the bathroom, open the cabinet, grab the wrapped EPT , tear it open and begin the monthly routine of "saturating the stick tip". I then made sure the cover was replaced properly and the stick was placed directly on a flat surface. Not to be looked at for exactly 3 minutes. At this moment the anxiety erupted from within.
I had been so sure this month we had been successful. We had tried a new approach (advise from a dear friend). This time we staggered ttc on day 12,14,16 of ovulation (oh, and day 15 also, just for the hell of it) but as I waited for the 3 mins. to pass I found myself instinctively knowing that I would not see the double lines I had hoped for. WTF.
I have decided to contact either my OB or an endocrinologist (Dr.referral) this week. I know that my thyroid was a little wacky in April so that could be a potential problem. The main thing is to be proactive and get some testing done, to rule certain things in or out. I am not the youngest chicken in the coop, so time is not on my side. Pray for us.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Rosepetal
Rosepetal, I wanted to check in with you and see you have made your blog private.
I hope you are doing okay and would love to hear from you.
Updated: I just went over to Delphi's and saw her post. I am thinking of you often, and understand the time you are needing. So when the clouds lift and you open up again...I will be here. You were always the first one to post a positive perspective when I was down, hopefully, I will have the chance to reciprocate some day. Just say when.
I hope you are doing okay and would love to hear from you.
Updated: I just went over to Delphi's and saw her post. I am thinking of you often, and understand the time you are needing. So when the clouds lift and you open up again...I will be here. You were always the first one to post a positive perspective when I was down, hopefully, I will have the chance to reciprocate some day. Just say when.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Don't Worry...Be Happy
"Happy" Mother's day. Yeah, not so much.....What an oxymoron for those of us here in lossville.
I know, I am behind on this subject. But in between work, classes, studying and TTC a women gets no time to reflect.
So my Mother's day was filled tears and memories. My husband and I talked a lot of "she would've beens...."- She would have been 7 1/2 months now, she would have been rolling over, she would have loved her back yard, she would have been trying real foods, she would have been so spoiled, she would have been so wonderful to wake up to this morning.
We are in our 3rd month of TTC and so far no go. Which I know is hardly any time at all , but it has me concerned none the less given that I can pretty much pinpoint my exact time of ovulation with OPK and cervix position. This method proved accurate when trying and getting pregnant the 1st go with Makenzie.
I am contemplating going to get my hormone levels checked by the Doc. Or even going to the Endocrinologist to recheck my thyroid level that was 4.5 in Febuary. That was up a full point from January. Hell, at that rate, there is no telling where it might be today.
Dh, of course, thinks I am being silly and we just need to be having more sex. Always his answer to any lingering health issues. Boys.
At this point, I am not sure to worry or not.
How long have most of you been trying and/or how long did it take to conceive? When should I start questioning something possibly being wrong?
I know, I am behind on this subject. But in between work, classes, studying and TTC a women gets no time to reflect.
So my Mother's day was filled tears and memories. My husband and I talked a lot of "she would've beens...."- She would have been 7 1/2 months now, she would have been rolling over, she would have loved her back yard, she would have been trying real foods, she would have been so spoiled, she would have been so wonderful to wake up to this morning.
We are in our 3rd month of TTC and so far no go. Which I know is hardly any time at all , but it has me concerned none the less given that I can pretty much pinpoint my exact time of ovulation with OPK and cervix position. This method proved accurate when trying and getting pregnant the 1st go with Makenzie.
I am contemplating going to get my hormone levels checked by the Doc. Or even going to the Endocrinologist to recheck my thyroid level that was 4.5 in Febuary. That was up a full point from January. Hell, at that rate, there is no telling where it might be today.
Dh, of course, thinks I am being silly and we just need to be having more sex. Always his answer to any lingering health issues. Boys.
At this point, I am not sure to worry or not.
How long have most of you been trying and/or how long did it take to conceive? When should I start questioning something possibly being wrong?
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Our Little Man
Say Hello to our "bu-drow". He is our spoiled perfect "little man". His given name- Oakley. He is our pride and joy. And as you can tell, has to be up on us 24/7. He is part greyhound , part golden which makes him fast and happy. We decided to get Oakley at another dark time in our lives 6 yrs ago. Everyday since has been filled with his affection and good lick-licks.
When I was pregnant with Makenzie I heard numerous stories how couples no longer babied or catered to there pets. I was so worried we would do this to him - it made we cry on several occasions. Call it hormones if you will but this did cause much concern. I guess for now-my fears are unfounded. And he is still our "baby".
When I was pregnant with Makenzie I heard numerous stories how couples no longer babied or catered to there pets. I was so worried we would do this to him - it made we cry on several occasions. Call it hormones if you will but this did cause much concern. I guess for now-my fears are unfounded. And he is still our "baby".
Monday, April 23, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Lost Milestones
DH and I officially spent our Easter weekend as "shut ins"-
Why does the weather have to turn colder after teasing me with 80 degree springtime Dlite? Just when I was getting used to evenings in the hammock, with a cool drink in hand ,watching my husband slave in the yard.
Seriously, I haven't been that lazy all together, I have been getting on my road bike or taking a jog through the neighborhood as often as I can.
I missed Makenzie dearly over the Easter holidays. I had images conjured up of her in a pastel Easter dress with a barrette in that thick hair, staring bright eyed at the older kids as they scatter and cheer in the park, searching for brightly colored eggs. I always envision the smiles DH and I would have at those moments , watching her expressions as she experienced something new and profound. Lost Milestones
Why does the weather have to turn colder after teasing me with 80 degree springtime Dlite? Just when I was getting used to evenings in the hammock, with a cool drink in hand ,watching my husband slave in the yard.
Seriously, I haven't been that lazy all together, I have been getting on my road bike or taking a jog through the neighborhood as often as I can.
I missed Makenzie dearly over the Easter holidays. I had images conjured up of her in a pastel Easter dress with a barrette in that thick hair, staring bright eyed at the older kids as they scatter and cheer in the park, searching for brightly colored eggs. I always envision the smiles DH and I would have at those moments , watching her expressions as she experienced something new and profound. Lost Milestones
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Rocky Mountain High In Colorado
Holy Cow.....has it really been Feb. since I last posted? Where did March go?
DH and I are doing well. We took a long overdue vacation to the beautiful state of Colorado. Talk about a whirlwind tour. We started out in Frisco Mtn. skiing with our old and new friends from Up With People. The weather was in the high 60's -which made for perfect sightseeing but the skiing was less than desirable. So we drank. We went into Breckenridge and had the most wonderfully romantic dinner, followed by a 2 hr. wait in the crepe line at Crepe a la Cart's. A must try!!! After leaving Frisco we headed into Denver for 4 days and spent some ALONE time. We took a day and headed to Boulder, Estes Park and Rocky Mtn. National Park. Then on to Colorado Springs for some more sites and to hang with an old friend. All-in-all it was a much needed break for the both of us.
Question of the week: Have you two been thinking about trying yet?
Answer: Yes, as of March 1st, DH and I are officially trying again.
It seems to be the question of the week. I must have been asked about 5 times out of the blue. NO PRESSURE , huh?
On a sad note, I received an email while on vacation that our friends had miscarried. I had the chance to speak with her the other night and she is having a hard time dealing. It was early on in the pregnancy but tragic none the less.
Anyways-just wanted to jot some thoughts-promise to not wait so long to post again.
DH and I are doing well. We took a long overdue vacation to the beautiful state of Colorado. Talk about a whirlwind tour. We started out in Frisco Mtn. skiing with our old and new friends from Up With People. The weather was in the high 60's -which made for perfect sightseeing but the skiing was less than desirable. So we drank. We went into Breckenridge and had the most wonderfully romantic dinner, followed by a 2 hr. wait in the crepe line at Crepe a la Cart's. A must try!!! After leaving Frisco we headed into Denver for 4 days and spent some ALONE time. We took a day and headed to Boulder, Estes Park and Rocky Mtn. National Park. Then on to Colorado Springs for some more sites and to hang with an old friend. All-in-all it was a much needed break for the both of us.
Question of the week: Have you two been thinking about trying yet?
Answer: Yes, as of March 1st, DH and I are officially trying again.
It seems to be the question of the week. I must have been asked about 5 times out of the blue. NO PRESSURE , huh?
On a sad note, I received an email while on vacation that our friends had miscarried. I had the chance to speak with her the other night and she is having a hard time dealing. It was early on in the pregnancy but tragic none the less.
Anyways-just wanted to jot some thoughts-promise to not wait so long to post again.
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